My journey is coming to a close…. I am almost there!  My excitement feels like electric currents throughout me…

I feel like I am going HOME!  It is hard to express my inner-self.. the chatter within me.  It feels like I am going to an amusement park.  THAT, kind of excitement you feel as a child.

What a blessing.. I am so grateful.. I can’t believe this.  I will believe when I am THERE.

When my feet meet the ground on that Mountain.. My Home.

Is it REAL?

Truly doubted it… wondered if this is what it is like on the other side… mmm… just didn’t seem REAL.

How can my soul heart desire manifest?  That is crazy!  It CAN’T BE TRUE!

But, today I was driving and driving… and the scenery began to change!  I was soaring down hills .. up hills… I felt as though I was FLYING!  THEN, I started seeing MOUNTAINS forming!  WOW!  WOW! WOW!

I am beginning to think… a teeny tiny bit… that this is TRUE!

Time to go

Time to end what is now.. to carefully wrap the memories in beautiful bows..to hold the gifts close to my heart and give them hugs for all that they are.

Well… one more day.

One more day and I am on my way.
On my way to the unknown.. the unknown future.

Today I heard someone talking
I looked all around for someone
No one was there.

The voice told me
“I am here”

I asked:  “Where”

The response was:  “I am you”
I laughed and told God “No it is YOU!”

You think… I am bad
Don’t listen

You feel… I am sad
Don’t listen

You are sure you will never find true love
Don’t listen

You are certain you will never truly be happy
Don’t listen

Look out of the dark clouds and fog surrounding you
Take a deep breathe and blow it all away

THEN LISTEN

I was walking to tomorrow

Not sure how to get there….. I was at a fork in the road.. Not sure which path to take

I had a coin in my pocket and decided Heads was to take the left and  Tails was to take the right.

I tossed it up and it fell Heads Up and I decided to go Left.

So I got lost… because I never trusted fate.  I wandered, encountered all sorts of people and experiences.  I loved, I cried, But I kept moving.

Finally, somehow I found myself once again at that fork in the road.  Learned my lesson and went right.

She smiled as he touched her hand

Their eyes were locked

he then kissed her

With passion and intensity

Nothing else mattered

No one else existed

Except them

She wanted him

And he, her

But, the hour was late

And, she broke away

They both let out a sigh as they parted

Goodnight he said

So did she

No plans were made

No promises stated

Only goodbye

Monday, so sweet, so comfortable.  I think that’s what heaven feels like this.  It, heaven, is a state of mind, heart and spirit.  Where it’s as though everything stops.  Not like never breathing again.  Not like having no feeling.  Not like a clock whose battery has run out.  I think it’s like standing at the shore of an ocean.

Your feet are bare and every grain of sand… you FEEL.  It cradles your feet and softly hugs your toes.  It’s not grainy nor hot.  Not cold or wet either.  It is soft, soft like the skin of a newborn baby.  And, as you’re standing there cradled in the sand, a whisper of a wind ruffles your clothes about your body.  Your clothes are loose…they fit yet, don’t constrict.  You feel as though you are without them…not naked…just natural and comfortable in your skin…in your life’s vessel, provided by God.  So comfortable, that you feel almost like you not only are not wearing clothes but in fact you feel as though you are not wearing your body.  And that whispering warm wind ripples your shirt in such a way that you feel as though your spirit is in flight…hovering about yourself, your vessel.  Your hair dances about your face and head..it feels like the feathers of a dove….so soft, so light almost like they are there, yet not.  The tips of your fingers tingle in an almost erotic way.  And, you are sure you are feeling LIFE.

And, as you gaze through your cameras of life, your eyes, the water sparkles and dances a slow fluid rhythm of peace.  The colors of this place we call earth become so brilliant, so defined that you swear you must be drug induced, dreaming or dead.

But, that gentle breeze takes you to flight and the dove’s feathers awaken your mind.  And, you feel a chill beginning, seeping into your toes and works its way through you body and erupts in your head.  Every follicle of your hair tingles and you feel so RIGHT!

And, during that moment you realize who you are and why.  You embrace yourself with comforting thoughts, with healing tears.  Not tears of sadness but tears that sizzle as they touch every sadness, regret and embarrassment you have lived.

They don’t put out those flames that have been smoldering your whole life.  But, they drip upon the flames and begin to swirl.  And, they join together and become many reflective pools.  Pools that you can look into and see your reflection of feelings gone by.

And, you can stare straight into each pool and see and reflect upon your past lessons.  And, know without a doubt that you learned and you grew every time your soul stepped into another puddle.  And, you know, for sure now, that they never had any dirt nor mud like you thought at the time.  But, they were the holy water, God’s watering fertilizer that made you grow, to bloom, to flourish wildly.  And, grow your soul.

That is what heaven means and feels to me.

I bought a ticket
A chance to win a prize
She told him

And what would you do if you won
He questioned

I’d buy a dream
Pay off all my debts
Security would be mine

A beautiful A-Frame, a getaway
Two bedrooms to the right
A master on the left

The sun would rise in the back beeking through the woods
And would fall into the ocean in the front

He smiled